Armor a poem submitted by ......for Shot Gun!

Armor

i hate my self for closing my eyes
and feeling your hands on my thighs
for picturing that look
of pure love
and holding onto that image
for the whole five seconds it lasted

we talked for hours that night
surrounded by candle light
and great music
before you melted me
with your hands
caressing crevices
long since neglected
i still giggle
when i think about tickling you
on that patch of gray hair
as i began to take my first licks
down there
i still feel you inside me
mentally
emotionally
physically
you always allowed me to take flight
but the wings you provided
always burned
when getting close to the sun

your love for me
was never in question
i know that you love me
as best as you can
but your best
is shaped by women
who never saw your true beauty
only what they could get out of you
so my loving
of the real you
the layers shadowed by stage lights
and hidden by sarcastic comments
is felt
but lost on the armor that holds you together
just as i melt in your arms

Star Dust For Us

Stardust for Us

yesterday will not
fade
simply because
you
and time
the world
and even
i have moved on

the days have
stood in place

in a living room
I have left and emptied
i still stand in the window
watching your car pull up on the street where i lived
i grin with joy as you walk through the door

how come i still feel
your thighs melt in my hands
as if there were still
laying across my chest

how come your hugs
shatter my sensory perception
like kissing you
killed the way my clock keeps time

sometimes
my tongue taste like it’s
still
searching
for your sweetest spot
my skin feels a stickiness that’s not there anymore
and we look to the door
expecting to hear your yelling
from the hall

then I let today back in
bitter with the tastes of now

it’s been years
since my hands first found their way
up under your dress
to kiss your body

that was a night I was want to remember
each moment was so sweet
it only bitters
when I force myself to forget